It's freezing, but I keep my baby warm at night

We had another doctor's appointment on Wednesday and it went better than the last one, but it almost didn't. My nurse has been super sweet and supportive and we were chatting about  about my weight gain and as Brett said, she wanted to tell me I was fine but knew she couldn't as that was not really her place. She had gained 100 pounds with each of her two children! We also talked about how it had been a really busy day and hoped that my doctor had found some time to have some lunch in between patients. When my doctor came into the room, she looked like she was trying to collect herself and looked exhausted. Before she really had a chance to say anything, I said, "Busy day? So sorry to hear that." And I think that helped her not be as irritable towards me.

I had gained 5 more pounds and this time we talked about what I had eaten that day: Cereal and English muffin for breakfast, hard-boiled egg for a snack, peanut butter and banana sandwich and an apple for lunch and another hard-boiled egg for a snack. She said that all sounded good, maybe cut back on carbs a little (I had pizza for dinner...oops) but she said it sounds like eating has not been the problem...it's actually probably been exercise since I have been doing little to none. Staying active, since I am teaching, but it is just too cold to do anything outside and I'm really not much for walks, that's pretty much my only option right now. I also gathered that she's not actually too concerned with my weight gain as much as she is worried about me having to lose it at the end. That made me kind of mad. I know I am going to have to lose weight after the baby, if it is a problem NOW that I am gaining weight, then tell me that, not, "you will not be happy if you have too much to lose later." Let me worry about later and you worry about now. I will actually have more motivation to get out and exercise later since he will be a spring baby and Brett and I will want to go on walks with him and I'll be playing tennis later on in the summer. Ok so maybe I'll be tired but I know I won't be sitting inside all day long.

Anyway, our Lamaze (childbirth prep) class has been going really well. We have had two classes so far and I really like our teacher. We have been slowly meeting some other couples, but they all pretty much keep to themselves, it's kind of annoying. So far we have talked a a lot about nutrition, did some breathing exercises and stretches, we are learning different, more comfortable ways to give birth, and last time we talked a lot about the three stages of labor so that was pretty interesting. We also watched a video about labor and giving birth which I watched the whole thing and actually wasn't really bothered by it (very surprisingly) until they showed the placenta emerging (disgusting) and a newborn still kind of yucky from the afterbirth being kissed by her mom. I asked our teacher if I can ask that he be cleaned off and that I do not have to see my placenta. "Would it be ok to tell my doctors to clean off the baby before they hand him to me? I'd rather have a happy look on my face rather than a disgusted one and would feel bad if they are handing him to me and I'm saying 'No, no, take him away!'" haha She said I can let them know anything I would like them to do to make everything more comfortable.

I have had one good night sleep in the last week and after that has all been declining due to stress and anxiety about preparing our house, let alone for the baby.  We still have a ton of stuff all over the floor in Finn's room and this new place is great, but very, very limited storage. I woke up in the middle of the night thinking, "do we have a mattress for the cradle? Where are we going to put his playpen? We can't have bookshelves if we don't even have a dresser for his clothes!" I hate waiting until the last minute to set things up and to have things ready for just about anything and I feel like this is all totally out of my control since my mobility and strength is so limited. I have been looking forward to decorating his room and haven't even been able to do that because we have to do so many other things first. I'm at about 29 weeks now so I'm getting closer and closer every day, and things aren't getting any easier as far as energy, moving around, and lifting things. I know it will all come together in the end, but I want everything done NOW! Super frustrating since we have a long weekend and I don't know how much I will actually be able to enjoy the extra time off and rather just stress about everything. There is always something on my mind recently and I would just like a little relief. Ugh. We are getting closer and our crib should be here next week or so (yay!) but it's hard to just always be thinking about what needs to be done next.

Next ultra sound is January 30! Super excited to see how much he's grown!!

This is a video of him moving. I caught him as he was slowing down but if you look closely at the left-ish side and on the blue stripe, you will see a little movement. I will try and get some better ones later. So cool to see him moving like that!